Monday, September 21, 2020

Hide.

It's not expressly said and done,

but how can I not feel as tho I am being kept a secret?

The only one who doesn't deserve an interaction publicly, especially on social media.

Shallow, I know. They're just social media.

But what if I am shallow? What if that is what I desire? What if such an interaction is the kind of affirmation I need to know that yes, I am worth something. 

Sometimes, it's not just about what you're comfortable with or how you live your life; sometimes I too have things I want.

If this relationship is to be dictated solely based on what you want, perhaps the best thing for you to do is to be in this relationship by yourself.

Thursday, September 3, 2020

 Literally the worst thing you could have said to me.

Wednesday, August 5, 2020

Tapi

Kau pasti jika kau berlalu pergi, itu bisa buat bahagia untukmu?

Bagaimana jika kau sendiri derita, merana? Kau sedia untuk bersedih, meratap kepergianmu sendiri?
Bagaimana jika setelah kau pergi, sesal sahaja, kerana tiada apa yang berubah. Malah, kau bertambah derita.

Tiada siapa yang marah.

Pergi saja jika kau rasa itu yang baik buatmu.
Tiada siapa akan marah.

Sunday, June 28, 2020

Petty Little Things.

I was driving back from KL today, at around 3.30pm, and I saw something so petty on Instagram, so oh so petty, but was it?

Was it petty that it made me sobbed hysterically whilst driving at 150km/h speed?

It was not one petty thing.

It was a few things I categorized as petty as a way to sooth myself and convince me that it doesn't need to be voiced out. I categorized them as petty things as a way to comfort myself, and tell myself, that what I was

Do you think what I am feeling right now is too much?
Am I expecting too much from a friend?
Am I feeling this way simply because of the feelings I have for you?
What I am expecting from you is ridiculous?

You didn't defend me at all when that thing happened.
You barely

I literally am at a loss of words.

Sunday, May 3, 2020

Shade

"But you looked so happy in that photo."

"Check the date. I haven't met him when this was taken."