Wednesday, August 5, 2020

Tapi

Kau pasti jika kau berlalu pergi, itu bisa buat bahagia untukmu?

Bagaimana jika kau sendiri derita, merana? Kau sedia untuk bersedih, meratap kepergianmu sendiri?
Bagaimana jika setelah kau pergi, sesal sahaja, kerana tiada apa yang berubah. Malah, kau bertambah derita.

Tiada siapa yang marah.

Pergi saja jika kau rasa itu yang baik buatmu.
Tiada siapa akan marah.

Sunday, June 28, 2020

Petty Little Things.

I was driving back from KL today, at around 3.30pm, and I saw something so petty on Instagram, so oh so petty, but was it?

Was it petty that it made me sobbed hysterically whilst driving at 150km/h speed?

It was not one petty thing.

It was a few things I categorized as petty as a way to sooth myself and convince me that it doesn't need to be voiced out. I categorized them as petty things as a way to comfort myself, and tell myself, that what I was

Do you think what I am feeling right now is too much?
Am I expecting too much from a friend?
Am I feeling this way simply because of the feelings I have for you?
What I am expecting from you is ridiculous?

You didn't defend me at all when that thing happened.
You barely

I literally am at a loss of words.

Sunday, May 3, 2020

Shade

"But you looked so happy in that photo."

"Check the date. I haven't met him when this was taken."

Monday, April 27, 2020

Calm

Staying strong, standing tall.
Keep on moving.

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

A bit too much.

I'm scared of the way I feel. I wonder if I feel too much, if I love too hard.

What if this is not normal? What if I have too much love for one person? What if the love I have and can give is too much for any one person to receive? Is it normal to be able to love this much?

I'm scared if this hope that one day a person would come into my love ready to receive this much love will stay as a hope, forever.

Macam mana kalau aku terpegang harapan ini sebagai janji?
Macam mana kalau aku sendiri terkhianati dengan harapan diri sendiri yang menyamar sebagai janji?